who doesn't love a black & white vibe???
if y'all don't know how I met @xlittlekitten, it's kind of a cute story! Spencer had found her instagram through a photographer he followed and got sucked into her instagram stories because they were fascinating and so aesthetic. he got me into following her too and soon a bunch of people in our friend group in LA were randomly following her because of us (she lived on the east coast at the time) although none of us had ever met her or interacted with her. my manager at the time ended up reaching out to her and telling her about us loving her content (which I thought was SO embarrassing that she knew a we were all watching her stories and obsessing over her from afar š). luckily, tess is one of the sweetest humans alive and thought it was cute so he ended up putting us on a text chat together. I remember feeling so awkward because she seemed so cool (she is) and I had no idea what she was like in real life so I was nervous talking to her haha.
soon after that, she hit me up and told me she was going to be in LA for some shoots and asked if we would want to hang out - OBVIOUSLY we did. I remember she brought me some cute little crystals and some tea (which is the most tess thing ever) and we instantly hit it off. she's someone who is just easy to be around - we can talk for hours or just sit in silence doing our own thing while still enjoying each other's company.
only about a month later, we had found a house we wanted to move into (the one we still live at!) but needed to find another roommate. tess ended up randomly hitting me up around that time saying she was thinking about moving to LA so of course I was like... wanna live with us? and the rest, as they say, is history!
one one hand, moving in with someone we had maybe hung out with twice seems crazy, but I had done something similar when I moved in with Delaney (who I met on twitter) a few years earlier and it had worked out great. plus, it just felt so serendipitous that she had the urge to move right when we needed to find someone, like the universe was gently pushing us together.
while I'm not a spiritual person and I don't really have any hardcore beliefs about fate or some kind of "life plan", I do believe in going with the flow and allowing things to play out. I don't usually try to force things and I'm willing to dive into situations I wasn't prepared for or didn't expect to happen when they pop up. that attitude has helped me avoid a lot of bad situations and led to me to many wonderful experiences and friendships.
this was no exception! I feel so lucky to have this bb in my life. while in many ways we're very different (I'm loud, intense, and extroverted while she's much more quiet, chill, and introverted), we also have a lot in common (our love of cats, smoking blunts by the pool, aesthetic horror movies, overpriced green juices, vibey music, flowers, and obsessively cleaning to name a few) and there's really no one else in the world who makes me feel so relaxed and comfortable.
before I lived with Tessa, my apartments had always been more of a place I stored my shit than a home. while I did (usually) keep things tidy and decorated some, my work and travel schedule had me feeling like spending too much time on my home was a waste. Tess always puts little vases of flowers around the house and just generally puts things together in such a beautiful way that made me realize the importance of having a home you really love being in. it's okay to be busy and work your ass off, but at the end of the day, it's so important to have a place to come back to where you feel safe, content, and actually at home.
I don't exactly know where this post is going haha. I just thought I would share that story and got deep into it š but I truly hope you all have a Tessa in your life who reminds you to slow down, smell the roses, drink some tea, etc :)
WOWWWWWW. just found a photo from the first time I ever took nudes back in 2013. check ya DMs for the photo, but here's the story behind it:
when I first decided I was gonna do porn, I got a random guy I knew from working at hooters to take some nudes of me to submit to an agency (I tried taking them on my MacBook and it was a fail) and of course we did it in some sketchy bar office in downtown Greenville with truly zero aesthetic appeal lolll. obvi the point was just to show what my body looked like to agencies and they were never supposed to be anything high quality, but we truly could have picked literally ANYWHERE else and it would have been better haha. although I have to say, beyond being way more tan (back when I felt invincible & went to the tanning bed regularly) and having slightly larger boobs (thanks to birth control that I don't use anymore), I haven't changed all that much considering it's been 8 yrs so I'll take that as a win. but what's even more amazing is how I'm still just as awkward as I was back then!
not gonna lie, i've been missing that belly ring!
QUICK UPDATE: from now on, I will be sending out all nudes through DMs <3
In other news, we're currently prepping & decorating the house for the final night of Natalie's birthday extravaganza!
I'm thrilled cause I loveeeeee hosting & thinking of all the little touches that make people feel at home and comfortable while they're here :) likeee joint rolling station? check. phone charging station? check. snacks on snacks? check. extra toiletry products in the bathroom for guests? check. clean towels & beds ready for people who need to stay the night? check AND CHECK! I even prep or make a pot of coffee because people randomly end up wanting some later in the evening. & you will never find yourself in the bathroom without paper/wipes/matches on my watch lol. i definitely annoy my roommates with my OCD prepping but to be honest it's slightly selfish because I just know what people are going to need from experience and it makes it easier on me to do it before so I can actually enjoy the party. as the great philosopher once said: work smart, not hard!
I'm also weirdly into cleaning? like of course there are certain chores I hate but overall it's just satisfying as fuck. sometimes I wonder if I should have started a maid service cause I'm so obsessed with it. when we do occasionally hire maids I end up pre-cleaning & post-cleaning because yes... I really am that psycho.
okay I have no idea why I'm still typing this and telling y'all boring shit so i'm gonna goooooo now.
bye. now go wash your towels & sheets!
will post photos from the show later when I feel less like death & can go through them but for now here's a video of me dancing at breakaway fest cause I look kinda cute & this outfit didn't get any solid pics!
currently en route to San Diego to hit the fair (I didn't know they had them on the west coast?!) for Nat's second birthday celebration lolll. just to be clear, she's always been anti birthday and never has wanted to do anything for it in the past so she's allowed to have a blow out this year. personally I'm not upset about celebrating my bestie 3 days in a row (yes, we're doing something for it tomorrow too lol)
as promised, a few of the new LA After Dark graphics that will be dropping next!
fyi, that thong is just a mockup - the actual one is way cuter & you can wear it around your hips if you want but you can also hike it up for that high-cut / leg-lengthening / waist-defining vibe (which I desperately need lol)
the Fear the Reaper design will be on a black hoodie & retro style black tee so everyone who has been asking for a hoodie can rejoice! there will also be some nice little touches like hand distressing & hand embroidery (done by yours truly). I really love "Till Death or Dawn" - it feels like a party battle cry š
we're also bringing back one of out most popular designs as a bone colored tee that's gonna be fresh afffffff
what do you think? DO YOU LIKE?????
had to rush to make it to a meeting downtown LA after oversleeping & accidentally threw on this kind of fire outfit? LOVE THAT FOR ME. usually my last minute outfits make me look like a hungover college kid who hasn't made it home to do laundry š
I don't know if y'all care but my meeting was to finalize a new fulfillment warehouse for LA After Dark! It's been a doozy having to pivot at the last minute & find a new factory and warehouse over the last few months when we were supposed to have our next drop out in May (next joke lol), but things are finally coming together and we're going into production of the next collection! it's also a huge relief to be able to go and chat with people IRL & physically see/feel the products instead of doing everything though email / snail mail.
I'll give y'all a little sneak peak of the new graphics later since y'all are basically helping fund this project by supporting me on here! Someday when we're a huge company with tons of inventory (finger's crossed!) I owe you all a gift of gratitude so hold me to it! but for now you will have to settle for sneak peaks and a discount code (I'll DM one out once we drop more items since we're currently sold out of most shit!)
i swear i wore sunscreen & even sat in the shade a lot but YA GIRL IS BURNT!!!!!
i'm not even going to post a picture of my back cause no one needs to see that atrocity - at least i wore a hat so my precious face was protecc š¤
just an average Saturday at the house full of sunshine, laughter, shroom chocolates, & my one true love: Michelob Ultra š
y'all can hate all you want but I love that shit!!!!! i even slid in their DMs to try and collab lmao - it didn't work BUT they did send me some cases of beer so i'll count it as a win <3
oh btw, i got my test results back from my first physical in prob 8 yrs (u know, when i got the smoothie after & took a look a picture of my boob) & as it turns out, iām the *picture of health* ! well my my, would u look at that!!! can u believe? at least, thatās if i understood all the shit i obsessively read today about hemoglobin & whatever the fuck to understand what any of that shit meant.
good to know cause even tho i try to excercise & eat clean & practice moderation MOST of the timeā¦ i definitely have times of complete gluttony / mayhem so u rly never know š
i really didnāt realize until the other day that it had been 8 yrs since i went to the real doctor for like, general health as opposed to just going to address a specific issue (usually at an urgent care - which are trash lol). but i just got a membership at one of those new āsmart clinicsā where you do everything from making appts to getting lab results through the app, thereās no wait time for appts, you can easily get same/next day appts, they accept insurance, & the doctor talked to me for like 30 minutes before they updated my vaccines (donāt start) / took my bl00d. & itās crazy affordable ($16 a month). INNOVATION! WE LOVE IT!
sorry to sound like an infomercial lol but it *is* pretty exciting to find quality healthcare thatās easy to work into your schedule / doesnāt ruin your whole day / doesnāt cost ur first born chi1d. before i was operating on the āwhat you donāt know canāt hurt youā line of thinking š
alright anyway, this was random but iām kinda feeling bringing back the old school diary style tumblr posts š but now i shall binge CSI till i fall asleep š¤
goodnight š¤
p.s. writing long form on here low key sucks cause i always break like 4 weird ass OF rules like using ām33tā in a totally appropriate way & have to go back and change it lol
low key this is my favorite type of underwear š¹ i remember when i bought my first thong i was SO excited and it made me feel so grown up but i don't fuck with them at all now. no doubt theyāre sexy but JESUS CHRIST i hate wedgies. & theyāre actually not great for the puss health *at all* so letās save those for photoshoots, sexy time, & that occasional outfit that absolutely needs one. obvi these menās ones are a bit too ridiculous to fit under clothes but theyāre sooo comfy for sleeping/chillin around the house. 10/10 recommend, ladies (& gents too i guess, although i canāt speak to how they feel with a dick lol). & to be honest, thereās something about white cotton undies thatās just plain hot to me. maybe itās because it feels kind of innocent? or just casual / not trying-too-hard vibes which feels more intimate to me. idk š¤ what do you think? hot or not???
apologies for these unedited just-woke-up / pimple-medicine-on-my-face photos but if yāall want me to post more then iām gonna have to start being less insane about how i look cause this the real me & what my bf & roommates see everyday š¹ since this is more a fan page & not a porno thing i figured i should keep yāall updated on my lame hobbies as opposed to posting it on twitter so hereās the latest one: MICROGREENS.
if you donāt know about microgreens, they are amazing! most microgreens have the same amount of nutrients as the full grown plant (kale is one of the few that retains its nutrient levels as it grows) which is amazing because eating a huge bowl of veggies isnāt always the move even if you like them like me! veggies also lose their nutrients after theyāve been picked so when you grow your own microgreens you can cut them right before consuming them, so you can imagine the nutrients youāre getting are much higher than eating the full grown veggie from the store. theyāre also super easy to throw in smoothies or on top of other dishes to add some color and crunch without even realizing how much good stuff youāre putting in your body! love that for me!
after perusing a lot of bougie microgreen growing systems on instagram, i was feeling like they were overpriced & not necessarily that effective so i found a small, non-fancy website that mainly focuses on growing education but also happens to sell all kinds of perfectly measured seeds at a very reasonable price (40-70 cents each) and decided to go that route instead.
a week ago i planted the seeds which took about 5 minutes. they took 3 days to germinate but i think that was because i went a little light on the water at first. when i checked them on day 2 i added some water and by day 3 they were ready to be uncovered and placed in the sun. today is 4 days after that & they are fully ready to be harvested! i added a tiny bit of water each day (underneath the soil to keep the top soil dry & prevent fungus from growing on the plant) but beyond that i barely did anything! iāve never had a green thumb & kill plants regularly so these were super easy!
i went with the broccoli & radish to start as theyāre some of the most popular (broccoli is chock full of cancer fighting shit) and theyāre some of the fastest to grow. i knew i needed instant gratification or i wouldnāt keep it up, but i got some more obscure seeds to try next. iām especially excited about the mustard!
ANYWAY, i highly suggest trying these out! if youāre someone who doesnāt LOVE veggies, this is a perfect way to consume them. you can add them on top of everything for instant class, throw them in a smoothie, or make tiny side salads out of them.
one of my favorite KETO style ways to eat these is to cut up some avocado, sprinkle a little lemon/lime juice & salt/pepper, drizzle some olive oil, & then mix in a handful of these bad boys. you get a smol side salad that is full of healthy fats but still has the nutrients of a full salad without ALL the fiber that makes ya gassy lol. if youāre not low carb, you can throw it on some bread for some seriously fancy avo-toast. if you go that route, i also highly recommend trying some balsamic reduction drizzled on top. it does have sugar (even the ones without added sugar) but you only need a little to really make the flavors pop. your taste buds will thank you & your friends will be impressed!
i feel like if you have kids this is a perfect project for them because then you donāt have to do anything at all & theyāll be excited to eat veggies they grew themselves š¹ although truly this only took up maybe 15 minutes of my time over a week so anyone can do it! if you get the soil in bulk (from home depot or whatever) these really only come out to about $1 a tray (once youāve bought or made your own tray) compared to $6ish dollars at whole foods (which arenāt always available & are often already cut so theyāve lost nutrients by the time you eat them).
let me know if you enjoyed this blog style post & iāll start doing more of them (while still continuing to post the thirst traps & classy noods OBVI š)
xoxo, cc
went to the doctor today for my first physical in foreverrrrrrr, bought a cute new tank, got a yummy smoothie from my favorite juice spot, & now hanging with tessa on the couch picking out cute pics for yāall :) overall GOOD DAY. hope yours is too š xoxo
I'm back!!!! Thank you for all being so patient! I've been traveling the last few weeks for shows and got lots of content but just didn't get time to post so I'll be on here all week posting and answering messages <3
Love you all!!!
xoxo, cc
kinda wanna make a shirt with a collage of me peeing on it š¹ @xlittlekitten
btw, iām on the way to South Carolina to play in charleston sunday night! if you live there & wanna come out just comment on this post šš¼ iāll guest list everyone i can !
some film from this past weekend!!!
i gotta admit, iāve never been a huge fan of big music festivals because the logistics of getting home or going p33 or getting water is always such a shit show. tbh my favorite place to party is my own home because my bed is right there & i have anything i could possibly need š¹ so this weekend was pretty much a dream. some seriously fire DJs played, my bed was walking distance to the party, everyone got an artist pass, no lines, & no bullshit social hierarchy. just good friends, good music, good food (even the top ramen i ate late night lol), & a good fuckinā time.
if anyone is wondering, we stayed at bubbling wells oasis in palm desert! itās a big enough remote property that you can have a full sound system & theyāre down with events šš¼ (if you go, please donāt tell them i put my shoes on the fridge for content LOL)
hey guys! sorry i was MIA the past week - my friend threw a festival in the desert for his birthday & iāve been hungover ever since #oldpplprobz š¤¦š¼āāļø it was so good to see friends we havenāt seen in over a year though & i got a little DJ practice in before my first show back next weekend in south carolina!
iām about to upload a bunch of content but in the meantime hereās some cute pictures of me & soosh i found š¤
still working my way through messages š hoping to be caught up by the end of the month!
thank you all & much love,
cc
went to my friends $12 million grandparentsā house where andy warhol used to party in the 60s & his family tree is painted in the bathroom š¹ v iconic but this kid def gave me haunted house vibes lol
i ate like 4 kinds of fast food on friday & iām *still* ill š„“ send help plz !!!
gonna put on some netflix & eat enough edibles to make me feel better lol. any new stand up comedy suggestions? i feel like iāve watched everything but nothing new lately!
